How I was saved from the dark night of the soul
When I think of summer 2022, all I remember is darkness. It was like I was being guided from some unknown force, repeating the same cycle of self-sabotage, and feeding my addiction to sugar.
I fought the resistance to break away and ignored the tightness in my chest. I felt hopeless, stuck, and full of despair. It was like I had two identities. One desired to be fit and healthy, and the other told myself it was okay to have that fattening drink, or ice cream, or cookie.
I was verbally abused, had no job, no money, and nowhere to go. I didn’t even know who I was anymore. I was oppressed and driven by a dark shadow that dug deep into my soul. It was like sleepwalking in a living nightmare.
In fall of the same year, I faced my dark side. Daily, I fought this creeping rage, like a chill up my spine, desiring to be released. I’d feel this intense urge to submit, but as a new ager at the time, I’d meditate with deep breaths to release the negative energy that desired to consume me.
I did my best to use any new age resource available, spiritual coach, healer, oracle cards, rocks, reiki, praying to the universe to awaken with joy in my heart instead of dread.
The burden began to lift but then I entered a phase of being attacked verbally by other people—I was publicly humiliated, falsely accused, received harsh statements from individuals I barely knew, meanwhile my intentions were coming from a place of passion.
I was confused and began to think I was a horrible person. I didn’t understand what was happening. I believed, in my new age way of thinking, I was shifting energies and evolving into a higher level of consciousness.
But I was wrong.
I was deceived. I believed in practices that invited darkness into my soul.
When you believe:
You’re in control of your life
You can change your destiny through visualization and manifestation rituals
You can connect with rocks / crystals to receive energetic healing
Oracle cards provide guidance
Mediums and spiritual coaches have the ability to heal
You can co-create with the universe to define your true purpose
You can evolve into Christ consciousness
You’re guided by a council of light
Then you’re playing in the devil’s playground.
The goal of the devil is to lead people away from Jesus. That is his one and true purpose. This evil trickster can hook you in by showing you signs such as repetitive numbers, feathers, dimes, orbs of light, answering your request for signs and your manifesting dream into reality, with the help of his demons.
My period of the darkness of my soul was demon led. I was entangled in a web of darkness where hope eluded me.
When I followed the new age culture, I was attacked three times by demons—brutally harassed with thoughts against Christ. When I mentioned this to my spiritual coach, she had no comment. Why? Because new agers don’t believe in the devil. They believe in being blocked by the ego, everyone goes to heaven, and that our life here is to nurture our higher self.
If you don’t believe demons exist, read these scriptures...
One of Jesus’s main ministries was casting out demons, to heal the afflicted and the sick. After he died for our sins on the cross, the apostles, through the Holy Spirit, continued His work.
I always asked myself, if Jesus cast out demons everywhere he went, what does that mean for humanity today. The truth—they’re everywhere, and they will never cease in torturing your soul or the souls of others.
The book that led me to my conversion was Doreen Virtue’s book, “Deceived No More.” She was a renowned spiritual leader in new age saved by Jesus.
When I’d read the book, I was fully awake, but instantly, I’d become extremely tired and had to fight to stay awake. Demons at play, doing their best to prevent me from learning the truth.
Soon after my conversion, I had questions. I needed to know if any of what I experienced in my six years as a new ager, was real. It was explained if it’s not in scripture, it’s not from God.
When the Pastor and his spouse prayed with me for healing my ears began to loudly ring. I told them and they prayed to have the demon cast out, and the ringing stopped, but my mind was cloudy and unclear. When you cast out one demon a legion return. I continued my battle until I asked Jesus to cast them out and now, I feel cleansed.
New age is a manipulation to make people believe they’re on a spiritual path, but you’re not. The only path you’re on is serving the one cast out of Heaven.
In scripture....
I was an abomination in the eyes of God, but his son, Jesus Christ, saved me when I called upon him. A wretched soul who did everything possible to not dedicate my life to him. The one true Lord, who died for our sins so we could be saved.
Open your heart, search for the truth, and He will find you.
Hi, I’m Cathy
A blogger, photographer, author, passionately driven to point people away from new age indoctrination to find redemption in Jesus Christ.
I’m a mixed blend, excited to share all I offer...
Do you find yourself asking questions about new age, whether the practices and beliefs are leading your soul to redemption?
As a reformed new ager, I was saturated in the belief I could co-create with the universe and manifest a life of abundance. But I was deceived. This blog is to point you to the truth of God’s words and how He perceives the new age indoctrination.
